Repetitions, contradictions, emissions
The progressive slime of pleasure,
Immoral omissions, a failed endeavour.
Intoxicated interpretations,
Misunderstood: Enigma undertook.
Scrap-metal, cut him up - raw portent.
Cut-up – cut-him down –
consumptive
Drained cell. A needle neat, luxuriant,
The impaled butterfly. A cracked shell.
Blah! Blah! Blah! … Oh fucking
hell … well-read
Immature - neurotic - little mama's
boy...
Self pity reeks; self-absorbed my
miscommunication,
Guilt restored. – No “That is not
what I meant, at all”.
Mama's boy, eh? – Love & other
observations.
I thought I would look back &
laugh. I did.
Siblings severed ... How silly it all
is, eh?
We play pool & talked for a bit,
somewhat unrestrained.
'Touch' - 'Safe', a smile - your name? He rose & fell
On that dotted line … his document
denied.
Distorted, unreal an 'Isolated
incident'.
'Section 9' Insipid colours - calm you
down - or be denied.
Mohammed: He was there for life, or so
he said.
He wasn't.
Black Jack, Solitaire & other card
games
Followed. Mo: he kept me sane. Others
too.
A Buddhist, a Muslim, a Sikh, a
Christian too.
Turn that fuckin' TV down, I tutted,
A Nietzschean bearded geriatric muttered
something mad, as he strolled by.
Try playing 'Jenga', with a man with
dementia, we laughed.
Tricky. Chess. Checkmate … he's
sharper than you think.
The new year, rendering their certificate: Obsolete.
Resonant of One Flew over the Cuckoo's Nest- some bitter humour- hopefully your nurse was not a Rattchet, a sharp little hatchet job on sentimentality.
ReplyDeleteI found myself a voluntary patient - I was given a choice - volunteer or we'll section you. You can leave any time, just not now. I was under observation - scrutiny more like. I met some interesting people, but mainly sad people. There really weren't to many laughs in that crumbling Victorian loony bin. The people were like islands - an archipelago of lonely people. It struck me that happy people are by definition sane. That being said I remember them all with great affection. Your piece (very well written) touched those memories and I thank you.
ReplyDelete"volunteer or we'll section you." haha yes same here a couple of times ..but probably for the best. Thanks John glad you liked
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