Decay

 The mucus worsening - lungs - fucked – infected – putrefying slime. Coughing, choking churning up luminous green secretions, fingernails, split, hands cover in tiny lesions, crack too. Eyes putrid infectious worms dig – rings within rings within rings – Retinas fried from pornography too. Amalgamated emotions, cut-adrift confused alien almost. Still searching: Nothing. Growth stunted, ego too, spirituality dead – white stained – abuse etc. Christ, tolerated – sold-out-martyred kitsch and Catholic – or a guilty Jew? Prophet - gives way to profits, giving way to greed, from Superstar to scandal, in the end, bankrupt morally an otherwise and so on and so forth. He rolls a thin cigarette. Pours black coffee and thinks to leave the house … Fail-failing-failed-failure he thought. From senility to senile dementia ... Lobotomy in the end if lucky. Pouring another coffee, he thinks about leaving the house.