Bowing to Buddha became a compulsion;
another added to my accumulating habits. i threw out my arms with a
hollow pop – broke up a nest about the neck - cracking joints,
knuckles – nose – ears - toes. Stretching tendons below blubbery
fat. In the mirror – i uproot clusters blackheads from the corner
of my nose – squirm like worms. Flecking my reflection with yellow
grime. Capillary - clown.
i choked the toilet - a turd the size
of a infants arm. Flush – gargling struggle, just shy of an
overflow - bluish shit – acidic -sulphur lingering.
i brush my teeth spiting out a mint
pink froth, as i showered. Scrubbing my skin under hot water,
scooping smegma from my penis - flicking it away with my other hand.
Steam breathing life into dried phlegm clotting the plughole - sinewy
hair.
i dried myself thoroughly. Soup skim
scabs i plucked from crack hands. Leaving small white flecked red
lesions. i pulled up a pair of briefs and got into bed – Valium
-10mg - 5am.
Putting the disgust back in disgusting- an orgy of delight in physical grotesqerie thinly veiling psychological contempt, of yourself or possibly your audience- satisfyingly subversive. (think this one would read better in present tense, maybe?)
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